{"id":735,"date":"2006-11-03T11:10:40","date_gmt":"2006-11-03T17:10:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/wordpress\/writing\/1991\/7-29-91-initiation\/"},"modified":"2006-11-03T11:10:40","modified_gmt":"2006-11-03T17:10:40","slug":"7-29-91-initiation","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/?page_id=735","title":{"rendered":"7-29-91 Initiation"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"fb_share_1\" style=\"clear:left; float: left; margin-right: 10px; margin-top:10px;;width: 55px;\" name=\"fb_share\"><div id=\"fb-root\"><\/div><script src=\"http:\/\/connect.facebook.net\/en_US\/all.js#appId=125029517579627&amp;xfbml=1\"><\/script><fb:like href=\"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/?page_id=735\" send=\"false\" layout=\"box_count\" width=\"55\" show_faces=\"false\" font=\"arial\"><\/fb:like><\/div><p>Los Angeles<\/p>\n<p>Hard to say what I was looking for<br \/>\nMissing rituals from a broken culture<br \/>\nInitiation to a club that doesn&#8217;t exist;<br \/>\nA jump on a mid life crisis perhaps&#8230;<br \/>\nCalm washing over me days before<br \/>\nSymbolic action it may well be<br \/>\n(and a flexing of the male ego)<br \/>\nYet faith not needed to be tested.<\/p>\n<p>Heat and light are spectators<br \/>\nAs my patience begins to fray<br \/>\nLike the cord under the blue tarp<br \/>\nWet and cooler keeps it safer<br \/>\nCheck and check again<br \/>\nAnkles bound in velcro bondage<br \/>\nSome skit with pants down comes to mind.<\/p>\n<p>Serene and sunburned I ascend<br \/>\nFocused and still looking elsewhere<br \/>\nFor rooftops,oceans,freeways,signs<br \/>\nAutopilot engaged for days<br \/>\nMy need to be a native pro<br \/>\nBeginner&#8217;s luck won&#8217;t do and then&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Falling back into the hands of God<br \/>\nMy world now his world upside down<br \/>\nEyes open,not a sound from within<br \/>\nAnother sense takes over now<br \/>\nNumber six this time my body&#8217;s place in relation<br \/>\nTo Earth,updates every millisecond<br \/>\nUp,up,up so I can drop again<br \/>\nMomentum is like will sometimes<br \/>\nYou can work it for a while<br \/>\nAnd then you have to let it go.<\/p>\n<p>After common bonds are shared<br \/>\nBeyond the ankles or the hands<\/p>\n<p>Another letting go.<\/p>\n<p>As I returned to my place of growth<br \/>\nThe sky plays games without rules<br \/>\nLike tornado tones and arc lights<br \/>\nSurreal shades for day&#8217;s end daily<br \/>\nNot just smog,it&#8217;s magic dust<br \/>\nPacific island inferno half a world away<br \/>\nGets credit where it&#8217;s due.<\/p>\n<p>The horizon&#8217;s on fire tonight<br \/>\nAnd so am I<br \/>\nMy heart,skin,mind and skeleton<br \/>\nBurn so bright I don&#8217;t see clearly<br \/>\nThis is no time to think or look<br \/>\nJust to feel and thank and smile.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Los Angeles Hard to say what I was looking for Missing rituals from a broken culture Initiation to a club that doesn&#8217;t exist; A jump on a mid life crisis perhaps&#8230; Calm washing over me days before Symbolic action it may well be (and a flexing of the male ego) Yet faith not needed to [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":724,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","template":"","meta":{"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"spay_email":""},"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/PeNcU-bR","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/735"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=735"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/735\/revisions"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/724"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=735"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}