{"id":683,"date":"2006-11-02T14:55:02","date_gmt":"2006-11-02T20:55:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/wordpress\/writing\/1994\/6-14-94-beauty-and-strength\/"},"modified":"2006-11-02T14:55:02","modified_gmt":"2006-11-02T20:55:02","slug":"6-14-94-beauty-and-strength","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/?page_id=683","title":{"rendered":"6-14-94 beauty and strength"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"fb_share_1\" style=\"clear:left; float: left; margin-right: 10px; margin-top:10px;;width: 55px;\" name=\"fb_share\"><div id=\"fb-root\"><\/div><script src=\"http:\/\/connect.facebook.net\/en_US\/all.js#appId=125029517579627&amp;xfbml=1\"><\/script><fb:like href=\"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/?page_id=683\" send=\"false\" layout=\"box_count\" width=\"55\" show_faces=\"false\" font=\"arial\"><\/fb:like><\/div><p>Light reflecting shadows upon a carnival mirror heart<br \/>\nThe smell of it rides the breeze<br \/>\nDeep into the carnal level of the soul<br \/>\nI insist on being seduced by your beauty and your strength<br \/>\nEven as it&#8217;s dispatched by my hands<\/p>\n<p>I read smiles and backturns as if they were novels<br \/>\nI count the words as if I was being paid by the syllable<br \/>\nMy mind turns against me, aims and fires<\/p>\n<p>A ship without a harbor, a port without hold<br \/>\nI look to the hill for the house that will keep me there<br \/>\nThe lot is empty, the structure unbuilt<br \/>\nMy heart cries for a home from the cold<\/p>\n<p>I am honest as I tiptoe through this garden<br \/>\nAnd wonder if I could know the difference<br \/>\nBetween what I know and what is here<br \/>\nIf I demolish foundations of a building of a future<br \/>\nOr if I&#8217;m writing on a wet napkin again and again&#8230;<br \/>\n&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8211;<br \/>\nTo learn to allow things to grow on their own<br \/>\nTo push when the time&#8217;s right, not when fear calls<br \/>\nTo listen when something&#8217;s said, not implied<br \/>\nTo love when love is there to share<br \/>\nTo be a part of something rather that to create scenarios<br \/>\nTo see it coming rather than reflecting<br \/>\nTo find trust and my place in the world<\/p>\n<p>Returning from my path and seeing a home<br \/>\nMore than a place<br \/>\nMore than a commitment<br \/>\nMore than I have right now<br \/>\nIf I sound ungrateful, I&#8217;m not<br \/>\nJust under the spell of mating season<br \/>\nAnd lost from the pack today.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Light reflecting shadows upon a carnival mirror heart The smell of it rides the breeze Deep into the carnal level of the soul I insist on being seduced by your beauty and your strength Even as it&#8217;s dispatched by my hands I read smiles and backturns as if they were novels I count the words [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":415,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","template":"","meta":{"_mi_skip_tracking":false,"spay_email":""},"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/PeNcU-b1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/683"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=683"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/683\/revisions"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/415"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bittermancircle.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=683"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}